6:18 p.m. - Thursday, Jul. 21, 2005
What's up with that country guy on TV right now taking one of the best songs by Vertical Horizon & adding a little twang to it & calling it his own & not singing it nearly as well as they did in the original?
Meanwhile, I just basically had a breakdown. Things have not been so good lately. Emotionally, I've actually been surprisingly stable. Well, until I just had my little meltdown. And by meltdown, I mean finally just letting myself cry for a bit. But yeah, physically? I'm definitely not ok. I go to a specialist on Tuesday & find out if I'm ok & just going through a little phase or if I really won't be able to have children like I've always thought I would.
It's kind of scary, really, but I feel almost numb. Like I'm reverting inside myself so I don't explode. I'm trying not to let it show, how worried I am & all.